Not really, to be honest, I don't "feel" a whole lot when it comes to my faith (sadly), but I have (and do) spend a lot of time reading, studying, reflecting, and praying. Again, Christianity is, in fact, about a personal relationship with Christ and we are judged individually not holistically despite the Cross being for the whole.What you're doing, unfortunately, is creating your own religion based on what you feel the Bible means rather than based on what it actually says.
I will ask, though, have I said anything not based on scripture (even if misread)?