Oh, that's right! You're the guy who's "been there". Which was code for, "I joined the military due to my preconceived notions about terrorism and the Middle East and then proceeded to confirm my biases through my experience with people I already knew to be the enemy".
Are you really this upset that you've done nothing with your life?
People like you will never understand. You just don't have it in you to be selfless. It's completely foreign to you.
You're the type of person who wants everything given to him without actually earning it. You feel you deserve it.
What were you doing in your twenties? Probably still living off of mommy and daddy. What am I talking about... You're probably still in your twenties.
What was I doing? Something that will be remembered and talked about for thousands of years. That just pisses you off doesn't it?
You see... I don't have the luxury of being ignorant like you do. I lost what made me pure and innocent. I know and have experienced what humans can and will do to each other.
My body is beaten up and I walk around with a slight limp all of the time. I have scars that my children will ask about someday. I haven't slept through the night in over a decade, not once. I get to carry the memories of those lost, Iraqi and American. I receive texts and phone calls about so and so taking their own life.
You see most people think that the ones who made it back are the fortunate or lucky ones. No. The ones who lost their lives are the lucky ones.
Now? I have a great wife and get to raise twins with another on the way. I get up in the morning just like everyone else. I get the kids up, dressed and fed. I go to work at a pretty damn good job. No one really knows what I did. I keep it to myself.
After work, I pick the twins up from daycare and go home to spend time with them. I feed them dinner, give them a bath and tuck them in at night. I go to bed and get down with the wife. I wake up in the morning and do it all over again.
I have been asked by family and friends more times than I can count, "Knowing what would happen, would you do it all again?". I never even have to think about it. I would do it all again in a heart beat. I would do it one hundred times over.
This is the difference between you and I.