Cru, I was once a devout member of the flock, THEN I became a sincere seeker. When I started seeking instead of blindly accepting what my parents and priests were telling me, it was then that the lights turned on so to speak. I remember as a child that I had some doubts mainly around the question, "why am I right and every other religion is wrong?" I just went along with what my parents believed because I trusted them and knew they loved me. Over time, I started to ask myself ever more difficult questions and found myself "believing" just so I wouldn't rock the boat, not because I actually believed any longer. When we had kids, I had to make a very hard decision about religion and what I wanted to teach my children. Both of my kids were baptized in the Catholic church, mainly to please my parents since I was pretty much an atheist at the point my second child was born.
So, it was about 11 years ago now that I decided to read and study as much as I possibly could about religion, god, faith and the Bible. I read books by Christian apologists, I read Richard Dawkins, Christopher Hitchens, Daniel Dennet, Sam Harris, Dinesh D'Souza, Dan Barker, Bart Ehrman, etc. I watched lectures by William Lane Craig, Ravi Zacharias, John Lennox, Lee Strobel, etc. I tried to cover every base and have an open mind. I firmly believe that you must be open to all possibilities if you really want to explore any question.
I find it interesting that you accused me of being intellectually dishonest. However, you clearly stated that you have no interest in reading anything that doesn't agree with your line of thinking. That, my friend, is the definition of intellectual dishonesty. It is bias in it's purest form. It would be like doing a scientific experiment and having the outcome predetermined (which is exactly what young earth believers do). Honestly, it sounds like you are afraid of something. Maybe afraid of confronting your own doubts or of creating some doubt. You are not a sincere seeker.
Finally, I don't know why you want to talk to me privately. Are you trying to evangelize or do you really want to have a frank discussion? As I mentioned, I have read extensively on both sides of the religion/god question. You have already said that you are not open to any material that might take you in a different direction. Seems like it would be a pretty one sided conversation. It's hard to show the light to someone who won't open their eyes. Please don't take that the wrong way because there is no reason you have to open your eyes. If you are happier in your life with blind, unquestioning faith, then good for you. I'm quite content with where I am in my beliefs as well.