Maybe because I don't OWE you an explanation. But I'll give it to you.
First of all, I enjoy shooting. However, when I'm doing a photoshoot, I am leaving my home to work in some of the worst neighborhoods in Miami and Ft. Lauderdale at times. When I do that, I have anywhere from $40K to 0ver $100K worth of equipment with me. Not only that, I have other people on my crew that i'm responsible for their safety. Which Is also why I have a Florida C&C permit. Yes...I'm insured for everything, and even carry a $2 million liability policy to cover people that work with me. However, it's a safety element while on site.
I know other photographers who have been robbed and assaulted in these neighborhoods. The weapon never leaves my vehicle, and my crew never knows that it's on set. I'm also on the road 5-7 months out of the year, and I travel a lot. The only time I fly is if I'm going to the Midwest or to the West Coast to work. So I'm driving......with gear, and I'm not always familiar with the places I'm driving to.
I only have two weapons. A Mossberg 590 for my home, and a Glock 22(.40 cal) for when I travel or have a shoot in a shitty neighborhood. The Glock does not go with all the time. ONLY when for the two reasons I've mentioned. Both weapons have trigger locks and kept in a safe spot, regardless of the fact that my daughter has been thru weapons safety courses and has been trained on both weapons.
You speaking about insecurities is pretty funny. Thanks for the laugh.