I don’t have a pastor. I never attend church. Just went with my girlfriend and her family yesterday. My girlfriend is pretty indifferent to religion, like me, we were just going as a courtesy to her parents. The whole family thing.
Just a suggestion but maybe find a church in your area that it more based on song and worship than the traditions of a denomination.
We recently changed churches due to some infighting in our congregation and it’s been a world changer for us. We are eager to go every Sunday.
As with anything your life, your decision. I certainly am in no position to judge anyone based on the horrible decisions I have made over time.
Best of luck to you in your search Ragnar.
Signed
Ivar