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Rum and coke for me. It’s seems to be the cheapest.

My mom is a 25 year token of AA. Tells me all the time exactly what my problems are.

I can’t help it. And wonder what will it take to stop it. Lots of folks try and invoke their presumed knowledge.

I think I’m going to have to have a heart attack. Or worse. To stop it. But even then I’m not sure.
Have you considered shrooming in a clinical setting so you can "work" on the issue? For many people it's trauma, but they're having success with alcoholics too. And psychedelics are not addictive.

 
Yeah well most of us don’t advertise it, at least at my age. I never knew if my addictions were because of my brain or my addictions were controlling my brain. Same with eating. Post divorce I would eat for days, weighed about 125’#, worked out constantly, and got fvcked up every single night. My family somehow managed to keep me alive.
I completely get it man. My wife dried to end her life 6 years ago and still struggles with it today. She’s been sober now for 40 days and I think that has really helped, the fact she could do it while I was drinking as much as I was around her is amazing. If you ever get up around Decorah hit me up and we can catch up. It’s been a long time since my days at the Creek, but I do have fond memories of hanging out with you guys. Good luck with everything.
 
I don't know, man. I got help in Iowa when I was at my rock bottom and wanting to kill myself. It can be done. But like I said, it's not an easy road.
All of my family is in Independence. Mental health is not a priority In most states. Less so in Iowa.

Not that I think I’m going to have any kind of episode. But if it happens there. I know exactly where I’m going.
 
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Have you considered shrooming in a clinical setting so you can "work" on the issue? For many people it's trauma, but they're having success with alcoholics too. And psychedelics are not addictive.

Yeah those treatments are not legal about 49 states.
 
I completely get it man. My wife dried to end her life 6 years ago and still struggles with it today. She’s been sober now for 40 days and I think that has really helped, the fact she could do it while I was drinking as much as I was around her is amazing. If you ever get up around Decorah hit me up and we can catch up. It’s been a long time since my days at the Creek, but I do have fond memories of hanging out with you guys. Good luck with everything.
You know I will. Same if you are ever in the CV.
 
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Thanks YS. I started Saturday with being more introspective about it. I had a party about an hour and 20 minutes away. In the past I would have drank the entire way there, got high as shit while there, and drank as much as possible while there, likely not remembering half of the night. Instead I had 3 beers in four hours then water, and two drinks at another bar. Normally it would have a minimum of 15 drinks as well as anything else I could get my hands on. I know it’s a small step, but at least it’s a step.
I'd be curious if you go through any physical withdrawal. Seems like you've been having quite a bit.
 
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Good post, OP. The hardest part will likely be getting out or the routine/habit that you're used to (assuming there's not an actual physical addiction). The hardest part for me when I've done the "dry" months is cooking/grilling without booze. Booze and cooking have always gone hand in hand for me. Once you realize you don't need something in order to do something, it gets a bit easier.

You've got my info IRL. Reach out if you ever need to, man.
Hey man, I just finished dry jan!
 
I'd be curious if you go through any physical withdrawal. Seems like you've been having quite a bit.
I'd be curious if you go through any physical withdrawal. Seems like you've been having quite a bit.

As an alcoholic. We go through withdrawal every day. Dry heaving. The shakes.

Telling ourselves every morning today is the last day then ****ing that up at night.
 
I'd be curious if you go through any physical withdrawal. Seems like you've been having quite a bit.
No although I haven’t completely cut out alcohol. But two days of being cognizant of significantly limiting my intake has been a positive for me. I will admit that I do have the shakes until I start drinking. Being my size and drinking as much as I do that is no surprise.

Edit to add, shit I lied. I dry heave/gag every morning when I brush my teeth. Never at night, only in the morning.
 
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Kudos to you for having the courage to admit that there was a problem, that's the first major step. I was a pretty heavy binge drinker in my college days, but I moved away from it mostly because I got tired of feeling like trash for days afterward. I still drink on occasion, but always moderately.

I enjoy my flower and partake nearly every day, but again, in very modest amounts and always at the end of my day. I can easily give it up for weeks at a time with no mental or physical impact, and it's never impacted my personal life and my responsibilities to my family, friends and work life. I consume so little that the financial impact on my household is next to nothing. I've been blessed to avoid most addictive behavior, except for my love of tobacco and I'm doubtful I'll ever completely cut that out of my life. I've reduced my use (used to be a 25-30 cigs a day smoker) and now I'm in the 5-7 cigs/day so some progress but still worse than zero. My dad eventually quit them altogether only to fall into an addiction to gambling and he died nearly penniless as a result.

Keep at it @jellyfish10. You're a good dude with a good heart and I suspect that a lot of people here and in your personal life are rooting for you to succeed and get that level of control back. My best to you!
 
No although I haven’t completely cut out alcohol. But two days of being cognizant of significantly limiting my intake has been a positive for me. I will admit that I do have the shakes until I start drinking. Being my size and drinking as much as I do that is no surprise.

Edit to add, shit I lied. I dry heave/gag every morning when I brush my teeth. Never at night, only in the morning.
The dry heaving for me comes when I start to sober out next morning and smoke a cig.
 
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Kudos to you for having the courage to admit that there was a problem, that's the first major step. I was a pretty heavy binge drinker in my college days, but I moved away from it mostly because I got tired of feeling like trash for days afterward. I still drink on occasion, but always moderately.

I enjoy my flower and partake nearly every day, but again, in very modest amounts and always at the end of my day. I can easily give it up for weeks at a time with no mental or physical impact, and it's never impacted my personal life and my responsibilities to my family, friends and work life. I consume so little that the financial impact on my household is next to nothing. I've been blessed to avoid most addictive behavior, except for my love of tobacco and I'm doubtful I'll ever completely cut that out of my life. I've reduced my use (used to be a 25-30 cigs a day smoker) and now I'm in the 5-7 cigs/day so some progress but still worse than zero. My dad eventually quit them altogether only to fall into an addiction to gambling and he died nearly penniless as a result.

Keep at it @jellyfish10. You're a good dude with a good heart and I suspect that a lot of people here and in your personal life are rooting for you to succeed and get that level of control back. My best to you!
I appreciate that very much OO. Work is going to be a big part of the struggle. I work with a couple of full blown alcoholics and we like to travel in packs, make excuses for one another, etc. As I mentioned, everything is a trigger. Nice weather will be another big challenge, as well as my failures in relationships. It’s a long list.
 
I appreciate that very much OO. Work is going to be a big part of the struggle. I work with a couple of full blown alcoholics and we like to travel in packs, make excuses for one another, etc. As I mentioned, everything is a trigger. Nice weather will be another big challenge, as well as my failures in relationships. It’s a long list.
I was going to ask you about that, I’m pretty sure I know one of them. That will definitely make it harder but maybe seeing you sober up will spark a change in them too.
 
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I was going to ask you about that, I’m pretty sure I know one of them. That will definitely make it harder but maybe seeing you sober up will spark a change in them too.
Not for the one you are referring to. Usually after 2pm he’s loaded. Idk how much you have to drink at his size to be that drunk, but it ain’t a couple of Busch lights, that I know for goddamn sure.
 
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Yeah I’ve went to sleep with my 12 gauge pointed at my head more times than I can count.

Somehow it hasn’t happened yet. I guess I want to live.

If you need to talk to someone. Hit me up. I’m not stable atm. But I’m still alive.

Friend, please get rid of the guns in your home. You can give them to your local police station easily.

Here's the #1 book for mental health as recommended by doctors in America. It's the Bible of Cognitive Behavioral Therapy.

"Feeling Good" by Dr. David Burns. He also has a YouTube channel and website where he's putting out tons of free content.

Godspeed brother.

 
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Friend, please get rid of the guns in your home. You can give them to your local police station easily.

Here's the #1 book for mental health as recommended by doctors in America. It's the Bible of Cognitive Behavioral Therapy.

"Feeling Good" by Dr. David Burns. He also has a YouTube channel and website where he's putting out tons of free content.

Godspeed brother.

I’m sure he appreciates that Brian, but for me, the last thing I have ever wanted to do when I’m at my worst is to read a book. It’s usually to get fvcked up to forget how fvcked up I feel. Not trying to be rude, just honest.
 
Good luck man!
Can’t say I’ve ever had a major problem with alcohol (more of a college/single person thing) but I found it easier just to stop altogether aside from a few bigger get-togethers with buddies. Now I don’t even have interest in drinking at those get-togethers.
 
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Friend, please get rid of the guns in your home. You can give them to your local police station easily.

Here's the #1 book for mental health as recommended by doctors in America. It's the Bible of Cognitive Behavioral Therapy.

"Feeling Good" by Dr. David Burns. He also has a YouTube channel and website where he's putting out tons of free content.

Godspeed brother.

They’ve been taken away by the state. Not because I’m a threat to others.

I assure you I’ve read many books on how to improve my mental health….and I love reading. Have read a lot.

I’ve never read anything that has resonated with me. It’s not any words that are going to help me.
 
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Good luck man!
Can’t say I’ve ever had a major problem with alcohol (more of a college/single person thing) but I found it easier just to stop altogether aside from a few bigger get-togethers with buddies. Now I don’t even have interest in drinking at those get-togethers.
That’s the thing. Events give me a reason to get more piled up. I’ve been to a shit ton of concerts, and the stories always end with “I was so fvcked up.” I have never needed an event. Drinking just became part of my everyday routine whether something “special” was going on or not. Appreciate the sentiment.
 
They’ve been taken away by the state. Not because I’m a threat to others.

I assure you I’ve read many books on how to improve my mental health….and I love reading. Have read a lot.

I’ve never read anything that has resonated with me. It’s not any words that are going to help me.

I understand. You can save the audiobook if you change your mind.

Godspeed.
 
That’s the thing. Events give me a reason to get more piled up. I’ve been to a shit ton of concerts, and the stories always end with “I was so fvcked up.” I have never needed an event. Drinking just became part of my everyday routine whether something “special” was going on or not. Appreciate the sentiment.
Oh I get it, I was never a casual drinker and was always blackout drunk.
Thankfully I got over it. I’m not going to pretend that I did something that will work for you. I just hope you find something that does.
 
That’s all it is. A decision to be made.


I made that decision a few years ago. Then things happened. And I can’t make it again for some reason.
You need to induce neuroplasticity and there's a growing consensus that the best way to do that is through psychedelics.
 
No shame in AA if you find it hard to get things under control on your own. It's free and sometimes a very entertaining show. I'd imagine there are some lively meetings in Cedarloo. I'm not active and didn't work the steps or anything, but I would still credit AA with helping me quit. It was a place I could go for free during the hours I'd normally be drinking and talk to people who wouldn't be shocked by my drinking habit.
 
No shame in AA if you find it hard to get things under control on your own. It's free and sometimes a very entertaining show. I'd imagine there are some lively meetings in Cedarloo. I'm not active and didn't work the steps or anything, but I would still credit AA with helping me quit. It was a place I could go for free during the hours I'd normally be drinking and talk to people who wouldn't be shocked by my drinking habit.
Entertaining is the word you use?
 
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