I already gave you free, and very valuable advise, when I advised your dumbass to keep your low end public sector job because you are obviously not capable of performing in the private sector. While I was clearly correct, you chose not to take this advice and now find yourself failing, and want more free advice.
A retainer is like a deposit. It is an advance payment for legal services. Lawyers demand retainers in cases where they are concerned that the client will not pay after the legal services are rendered. That is often the case when it appears that the client is not very bright, and will likely be disappointed with legal advice that is not what they wanted to hear.
For you, a substantial retainer would be required, because you fit all the criteria: Little to no ability to pay after services are rendered, and a major case of stubborn stupidity that would likely cause you to again reject sound advice, and continue being a retard.
Just for the record, you don't have a case, and my advice would be to quit before you get fired.
Thank you Coffhawk I do not like the way you say it but I know deep down you are just a really angry person but also a person that wants the best for me. It may take time but I think we could be friends. I will think about what you said and will forget the mean parts.